Please leave me alone. (Reflecting out Loud)
This post is just a way of me blowing off some steam. I wrote it some time ago but never had the courage to post it at the time. I require no support or assistance I just needed to state the obvious out loud so that I can see and read it for myself and hopefully learn from it. Clarity and Balance are often difficult to manage. I am difficult person. I know this because despite peoples claims of my insensitivity I often see and get more than people think. I have very specific ideas and visions as to how I want to live my life. I am not good at allowing others to dictate to me, nor am I good at allowing others to have control of my life. I am opinionated. I can be loud. I take risks and I can be impulsive and reactionary in my behaviors. I can, and have, often acted in self destructive ways and could/likely will again tomorrow or the next day. I am restless and looking for balance but that balance often eludes me. That said, I am happily (at least I am...